I do remember being all over the place. Today I have faith everything will be alright. No matter what happens, I have a place of serenity; I know how to find support and comfort. Mostly, I can mind my own business.
I'm not writing a book, nor do I harbor illusions of being an author. I ignore the emails asking me to endorse products or websites. This was, and is, my sorting out place.
I'm thinking lately about how much information I put out about Andrew. Addicts and alcoholics face an uphill battle for a long time. Having his every move interpreted through me no longer seems right. I'm going to leave him to his life; it feels like time to move on.
AlAnon tells me I only have to deal with my feelings today, so there is no urgency in making up my mind.